that one event is always on my mind
usually when something goes down hill i forget about it and could care less but why now why is this one single thing bugging me so fucking much
why am i not happy
ive got everything i could ever want handed to me so why can i be happy maybe its because everything just given to me with little to no effort on my end………everything i put work into failsin light of recent eventsim going fucking nowhere this way and i only figured it out when i couldn’t pull it off i was so close it was so simple but there’s a plan in everything and i love it when a plan comes together soon it will all make sense until then im done with all the mundane bullshit done saying sorry for the person i am done trying to be better fuck it all its my time to shine
all i can think about was how close i was
and how it was almost in my grasp something i’ve dreamed about i wished for almost in my grasp and then nothing ripped from me like a shattered dream and i dont even know why it was all going so well all according to plan so why not why the fuck not? why coudent everything just go according to plan it was so fucking simple………………oh well back to the drawing Board i guess ill close that account for good
my friends are fakes but what else is new
im the punching bag now okay lets see how that works out for you its a bit pathetic just because you think your hilarious you can try to use me as a target i dont give a fuck who you are especially you erik just because your mother is dead it dosent mean you can treat someone who was there for you like shit and i know its not just me either i dont care how good your martal arts is ill make you fucking regret more then just how poor you are i have no respect for you anymore what i had is dead same goes for the rest of you we were friends since elementary school then camacho and pfenning come around and im a target yea fuck that you miserable pieces of shit christian too most of all just becuse your family hates you becuse your useless and you cant keep a girlfriend longer then 3 days dosent make me your target and karlya we were fucking brothers but dont have my back anymore that’s cool i know how fantastic my life is i dont need any of you out of all of you karlyas the only one going anywhere the rest of you will be kissing the closest ass you can get to get a fucking dollar burn in hell you miserable fucks
